Monday, 7 January 2013

New job, new mindset


I start my new job tomorrow! I am so terrified, and so excited. This is my first “grown-up” job, in the way that it’s not a student/placement/co-op position.

Yesterday, my very sweet brother drove me down to Toronto because I was too flu-ish to drive myself. It was weird being a passanger in my own car, but it gave me a chance to nap and try to recover before starting work tomorrow.

For the time being, I am staying at my aunt and uncle’s in Mississauga, and it’s been great hanging out with my cousins, eating too much food, and playing with puppies!

Today I ventured into downtown Toronto to practice taking the TTC. It seems stupid, but I was so worried about getting to work on time. I lived in Toronto years and years ago but I’ve completely forgotten how to get around—and it will be pretty intense at rush hour. I am determined to remain positive about the commute. I know that it’s going to be hard to keep a smile on my face at 6:30 in the morning, crammed onto the subway, but I want to remember that it has to be better than waiting in traffic at 6:30 in the morning!

I’ve also been trying to combat my nerves by reminding myself that the thing I am most terrified of—making mistakes—is not only okay, but is going to happen. Like every girl I know, I can be way too hard on myself when I mess up. This time, I want to remember that I am going to have to learn how to do the job before I can be good at it, and that’s what the training is for. 

I know a lot of people are going back to work/school tomorrow--what are some things you're trying to keep in mind at the start of the new year?

7 comments:

  1. I have the same fear and anxiety over making mistakes. Which is ridiculous because it's not like someone hires us and thinks, "She's the one. She's the girl that won't make any mistakes." But for some reason that's what I end up believing. Maybe it will help to remind yourself that your employers hired you for you, exactly where you are now. They know you will grow and learn and become a productive employee, but for right now, day 1, they just want you, your potential, your mistakes, and self starter spirit! you are going to do great!

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    1. ^ what she said :)

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    2. Thanks, both of you!

      It's so true. I even reminded one of my fellow hires of that a couple of times. Employers aren't perfect and trainee definitely can't be, at least not at first!

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  2. Good luck with your new job. You will probably do better than you expect yourself to. Also, what is your new job? What do you do? :)

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    1. I work in Emergency Management, I don't wan't to get too specific about my job position because I don't want it linked back to my employers, but basically I am getting started at an organization I am hoping will give me some good opportunities to continue in the field or get hired on full time in a related one! Also, I am still not 100% sure what I will be doing yet! But I'm excited about the opportunity to learn as much as I can.

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  3. Go, you! I hope you have a great first day.

    I'm terrified of making mistakes too, to the point where I was so hard on myself that I just couldn't stay at my high-pressure job anymore. I just resigned today for that reason, among others.

    Stress over something that may or may not happen is not worth your happiness and your excitement about starting something new. If you do end up making a mistake, tell yourself you'll do three things: 1) learn something from it, and 2) laugh at yourself and 3) let it go-- keep pushing forward.

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    1. Thanks so much! It was really good.

      It sounds like resigning was the right decision for you! I was talking to my younger cousin the other day about putting too much pressure on yourself, and how it can be so, so damaging.

      I'm definitely still working on the letting go part, but I feel like I've made progress!

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