Wednesday, 9 January 2013

Portals of discovery


My train leaves for downtown at 6:30AM. Yesterday, I woke up at 6:57AM. On my second day of work. My devastation: Utter and Complete. 

What did I do? I swore, jumped out of bed and got ready and into my car within 3 minutes. Then I continued as if it were any other day. Because the truth is, there was nothing else I could do. I couldn't make the train go any faster. I couldn't push past everyone else on the subway. Getting upset and panicing wasn't going to help me go back in time and set my alarm for 5am instead of 5pm. I just had to deal with it. 

(Okay, I thought I might burst into tears when I got to Union station at 8:30, half an hour after I'm supposed to be at work, but I soldiered through it)

It was a good lesson for me. After worrying so much about making mistakes (see Monday's post), I made a Huge and Glaring one, and it wasn't the end of the world. Yes, I felt really stupid, and yes, I still flush when I think about it, but no one died, and now I will never make that mistake again. 

In related news, the people at my new job are really, really nice. 

Some other observations:

It has taken me a grand total of two days to give up on style and abandon my Longchamp for a backpack. I am just carrying way too much stuff from one place to the other.

Ditto for heels vs. Uggs. 

People are surprisingly courteous during rush hour in the subway. I'm trying to return the favour by smiling more, holding doors, and thanking people for their kindness. 

Food and coffee have become 1000 times more important now that I'm in training from 8-5 every day. Without food, I am cranky, cold, and tired. With coffee, I am friendly, outgoing, focused and so, so much happier. I missed breakfast this morning, and I'm sure everyone could tell the difference in my mood before/after lunch. 

It is shocking to me how much warmer it feels in Toronto than Ottawa. Maybe it's just warmer in both places, but I am really enjoying not having to wear Sorels/my Canada Goose jacket every day. 

I have zero energy when I get home from work. I keep thinking "I'm going to write/answer emails/paint my nails/do something productive when I get home". Instead, I put on sweatpants and lie on the couch. It's tres pathetic. 

I've also been super lame at keeping up with other blogs, but I really appreciate the comments I get on here. They make me smile during the day, so thank you :)

12 comments:

  1. Oh, goodness! Sounds like a rough start! I hope today goes much better!

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    1. Thanks! It definitely improved after that :)

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  2. Oh gosh, that is rough. Love your attitude about it. This is a weird analogy but I'm going to go with it -- it reminds me of when a basketball team is ranked 1 or 2 and all the fans are kind of secretly relieved when they lose early in the season. At least they got the loss over with and can move on. And that's you! sort of. maybe. anyway, sounds like you have a great attitude about it :)

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    1. This is a completely perfect analogy. I remember doing a competitive ice-breaker kind of game once where I made it really far, and then I lost on purpose because I couldn't take the pressure. And I'm really glad my first mistake was one that just caused embarrassment, rather than real damage!

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  3. Oh man, waking up late on the second day of work-that has got to be one of the worst feelings of panic an dread ever. But I agree with abbey, your attitude is great and it is kind of relieving to get a worse case scenario out of the way on the 2nd day. It can only get better! way to keep your head up.

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    1. Thanks! Everything got a lot better from then on out, and I think attitude was a big part of it!

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  4. Everything will get easier ans more routine. I'm sure the people at your job understand that you're still adjusting. We all make mistakes :)

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    1. Oh, they were actually really great about it, and you're right, the routine made it so much easier :)

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  5. That sounds like something I'd do. But good thing is, you took it in stride and made it to work! Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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    1. Thanks! You too :) I am having a good one so far--I slept in until 2pm, so clearly I am a little tired!

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  6. I think finding that after work (or after school) energy is super hard, especially when you expend so much energy and stress travelling a long(er) distance every day. I wish I knew what the secret was! Last summer I was the Coach Potato Queen as soon as I got home from work at 5:30pm.

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  7. Oh, good on you for getting through it and moving on with your day! I think a situation like that may have completely paralyzed me. Glad you're enjoying your work!

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